Friday, November 12, 2010

Splinters

Firstly, thank you to those that have raised concerns about me, it is most appreciated.

Please be reassured that in many ways I am fine. It is just that as animals shed their skins occasionally I must shed mine.

It is more than that, it is in fact a dislocation of whom I currently am. I have no doubt I will surface again in another skin once I conclude what consciousness means to me, but in the meantime I will drop by and support those in the blog community that I have become close to.

Thanks again, GingerD aka Jane

BTW if you wish to be close to how I feel right now, then a mix of Muse's Absolution and Depeche Mode's Playing The Angel will take you there. Literally.

Addendum: there was a man who called me Honey Child who traded secrets and loss. He met his dark lady two years ago, and left me bereft. Gary, my pirate, I am lost still. No one but you ever saw the Honey Chil', and no one else ever will. Rest in peace, twin of my soul, my pirate, my lost boy. I will never forget you.

4 comments:

B said...

thanks for the clarification. hope things stay ok.

Ginger Doll said...

Hmm...sometomes I can get a bit pretentious when I write when I'm drunk. To put it more simply, I'm not dealing well with impending redundancy - I actually feel entirely redundant, rather than 'economically' excluded. It's challenging my whole sense of identity which is reflected here. I need to adjust to it, and until I do I'm not really comfortable updating so publically.

Of course I could just have a tendancy to overthink things!

LiVEwiRe said...

I still want to keep an eye on you. xoxo

Ginger Doll said...

I'm feeling a bit more human at the mo, despite the vast amounts I seem to have been drinking recently so will no doubt be back soon, either here or there!

I have a wordpress site I want to actively use, so I'm working on that. In the meantime I have to restrict my updates on carol singing Little Donkey with a plastic tamborine to myself!